Kanye West Swears Off Award Show Audiences & Stage Crashing

Kanye West is going to let you finish – the rapper says he’s done rushing the stage and won’t be seen in the audience of any future award shows.

Kanye stopped by the “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” in an episode airing on Tuesday and spoke about his year following his infamous MTV Video Music Awards interruption of Taylor Swift.

“For your whole world to completely crash off of a moment of sincerity or alcohol or whatever it is,” he said, recalling the incident.

“I feel like in some ways I’m a solider of culture. I realize that no one wants that to be my job and I’ll never go on stage again. I’ll never sit in an award show again,” Kanye continued. “Will I feel convicted about things that really meant stuff to culture that constantly get denied for years and years? I’m sorry I will. I cannot lie about it to sell records.”

The rapper told Ellen he embarked on a worldwide trip following the 2009 MTV VMAs.

“It’s a pretty bugged out story. I left America. I stopped doing music all together. I just took some time. I went to Japan just so I could get away from paparazzi all together. Then, in November, I moved to Rome and just lived there and when I came back to the states I moved to Hawaii. I lived there for about six months and just worked on music,” he explained.

During his travels, the Grammy winner said he addressed some past personal struggles as well.

“What was good about going away it was the first time that I got to stop since my mom had passed. I had never stopped and never tried to even soak in what all had happened. It was the first time I had stopped since I had made it. Since I had started,” he told Ellen. “It was time to take a break and develop more as a person as a creator and focus more on my thoughts and my ideas and what I wanted to bring to the world.”

In more Kanye news, according to the Associated Press, the rapper revealed he had previously thought about taking his own life at a screening of his film, “Runaway,” in Los Angeles on Monday night.

“There were times that I contemplated suicide,” he said at the screening, which Morgan Spurlock, Ryan Phillippe, Pete Wentz and Ashlee Simpson-Wentz also attended. “I will not give up on life again… there’s so many people that will never get the chance to have their voice heard… I do it for them.”

Kanye reportedly did not tell the audience when he had considered suicide.

Kanye’s “Runaway” will premiere on MTV, VH1 and BET this weekend and his latest album, “My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy,” will drop on November 22. His next single, “All of the Lights,” features Elton John playing piano and a stellar chorus that includes Rihanna, Fergie, Alicia Keys and John Legend.